This year has certainly been one for solidifying opinions, behavior, attitude- personality. It's hard to reflect on the last few years- or even this year- without looking through the eyes of my current mindset, which is one clouded by the eagerness for a new environment. This attitude is one of which I'm not very fond of. I can't do anything to help it; it's as involuntary as senioriotis (actually, I think this might be part of senioritis). The point is, with this attitude, there is a fog of constant pessimism I can't get through. Hence, I might be a little more criticizing of myself than usual.
I liked to see myself as an optimist, a humanist, someone aiming for genuity in everything they do. I also like to live in the moment, which is why applying for college and planning so far ahead was more of a chore than I planned. Though I found this way of thinking comfortable, I think I've let myself fall too far into it. By being too laid back, -and now, hoping for that environment change to come too quickly- too many things have escaped me. Though I've learned a bit more about myself, I've learned things I almost wish I never found out.
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